Who is your nemesis?
I don’t mean it in the way of a bad person who has done you wrong, or someone who seems out to get you – I mean in the sense of an arch rival. The person who is doing what you want to do, or what you are doing, only better.
I have had so many nemeses in my time. One of my many personality flaws is crabbing envy that is at times so acute I am completely stuck, immobilised, paralysed with critical shame and horror at not being as successful or pretty or funny or stylish or whatever as the current nemesis.
A nemesis is extra terrible when they are:
- also much more popular then you even though you see right through them and think they are a phony
- so much more successful than you that to even compare yourself with them is insane
- younger than you
- not actually that hard-working or in another way morally flawed
I’m battling with a couple of nemeses at the moment, it’s hard work. I tell myself that it’s a good thing, it will inspire me to work harder and be better and not be complacent. In the middle of the night, of course, I wonder if the envy will just eventually give me cancer.
Who is your current nemesis?